ergrrrr, what a hectic day...after my friday and saturday night on duty 2x24hours tired standby for medical patient, and lovely evening sunday i have to standby again on duty...hahahah
on friday's night, i call him, and you know what i do?hahahah, somethin spontaneus act, i tell fim all of my confused last thrusday nightt..yesss, all "somethingWrongInMyMind, allThatLittleStuff"...hahahah...you know what i feel???i feel so damn freee...there's nothing i have to rush and confused again, i tell him that i can handle it by my self, i just asked him about thisLittleStuff, and he doesn't ever know it yet!!!about his friend, about that ManMock..OMG...when i tell him clearly, he spontaneous answer "you can trust me and what i say" and my answer "but that LittleStuff Scaring me darling", he say : "i don't know yet who's he?what he's said?"...ia answer "i don't remember(in my heart, in this case, I don't want to remember at all)..coz i've hurt...hahaha such a dramaqueen am i???
and after that clarifying job, we discuss about all the longing feeling, sweet memmory when he's near me, discuss about future, and plan about my job and school..god, 50 minuet just feel like one minuet, i'm absolutely enjoy that time....
in friday-saturday on duty, i meet some medical patient, they know me so good, but i don't remmember them at all, (am i so that arrogant?)hahah
they call the clinic when i'm on duty, ask what time i standby, and they come to meet me, i'm not the only one staff at that clinic, but they know me well, i don'nt know why, they happy when meet me, and thanx god...they'd be better when take the medication, and meet me with other collega or family who get sick coz they trust me..(i'm flying rite now)...wekekek...
after important conversation, they ask my fix schedule on this clinic, and i say maybe 2 month after this, i might be not in here anymore, coz i have to take other job, coz i have to take some next education as soon...so its impossible for me to stay on that clinic my whole life...i have to go another continent, other different life, so sorry to say that, and my patient has no choice, to keep me with them it's impossible, to let me go it's better for me, maybe worst for them, there's some dissapointment in their face, but i have no choice, i don't want get dissapointment again if they come just want to meet me, but i'm not there anymore without say goodbye...
it's sadly..but i feel ok, ok, life must go on, i became more wise after i see them, learn so much from their simplicity of life...i learn much in here..
and this day, i have to realize, that the sign of all my destiny, sounds great that i can hear that..hahah, i don't know, in a few days in lovely month october, i have to meet much kid patient, with various case, rare case, and too specialistic for me as general practioner, and today i have to meet other gemelli baby, i have on duty to be "welcomingDoctor" in operating room...(it's so long time ago), is this some sign?that i have to continue take some specialitation education for paediatrician as soon???
only God knows...but i haven't already for that..hahaha.. =D
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